As I am staring at my computer screen for what seems to be an eternity...trying, by the sheer grace of God, to construct a blog as a place to spread the seeds of my soul and tend to them daily....I am chilled by the breeze blowing threw my open window behind me. It just occurred to me that this is an unfamiliar feeling, given that I live in the sunniest region in the country where the average temp is about 105 degrees:)
It's ironic how life imitates nature, or so at least for me it sure seems to! For not only are the nights arriving sooner and the mornings now greet me with a nip and a crisp, perky smile as if to say..."I have arrived, my child, to make those things that have become old, new again!"
...So on goes the "seasons" of my life....I won't get into the nitty gritty details of my most recent personal peaks and valleys, because I am learning that I don't think we are even meant to do that. Maybe we are meant to lament on the outcome of our sorrows and the result of our victories, rather than split hairs over what happened when, where, how and who's fault it was. The bigger question would be...did you stand firm in what you KNOW to be true and right....and just..?
Just so you know, if I had "it all figured out" I wouldn't be writing this! These are just the observations of one overtired, underslept, middle aged woman who has made her fair share of mistakes in life and is struggling to find my strength these days, not from within, but from above.
...Hence the name of my blog!!...I have one wing, tattered and worn....or so at least, that is all the naked I can see. And quite honestly,shamefully so, it is all I felt equipped with on many occasions, therefore convincing myself I could not possibly FLY! But you see, along with this change of seasons in my life, has come the knowledge that often times things that we see (or do NOT see) are not as they appear.
Why...silly! Of course I could FLY....how did I get this far..?? Not only bearing the weight of a deeply broken heart from love gone wrong, but bearing the burden and the blessed weight of each of my children, as I flew amidst the most turbulent of winds, being tossed to and fro like a ragged old chew toy in the mouth of a rather large dog!
I am forgetful and naive to think I made it alone. My other wing was hovering over me and has wrapped me up in its warmth many lonely nights when I felt my world had broken into 1000 tiny pieces, never to be whole again.
So...it's late, and the good Lord above knows I do not sleep as it is, but I wanted to take this opportunity to introduce myself, along with my "one wing"....I hope this becomes a place eventually where you will feel safe and inspired to share your "flight"....aka Journey, with me as well. I have had so very much bursting inside of me, waiting to be put down on paper, to hopefully someday, bless another that may walk where I have walked, or better yet....may try to fly with only "one wing".....
...for I am living proof...and here to announce to the world...YOU CAN DO IT! You are so much more than your mind allows you to believe you are! we were created by the most amazingly wonderful Master of all pieces...and you, my one winged friend, and so very beautiful..!! Your story is not over, it's only just begun, and just know that the second half is going to be the very best part....
